My best friend :o

Hi I'm Hollie incase you didn't know I have a few questions 1) How do you guys think I should start my blogs of? and 2) What did you guys think of my first blog? and 3) do you guys want me to start a youtube channel?
Ok so I was out with two of my friends chloe and Abby and I had to leave my sleeves rolled down on my jacket so they didn't see the cuts.  But they were slagging my best friend of and I didn't know what to say so I just carried on walking along side them while they slagged him of.  We started about when we are going to london with the school for this thing called enrichment week which happens at the end of every year and you can pick certain places to go or certain activities to do and this year I'm going to London with a few of my friends and I'm sitting next to my Best friend on the coach (we discussed this in science great lesson to discuss it in right) anyway he dosen't know about me cutting but I don't know whether to tell him comment if you think I should.  And me and him have planned that me and a few other mates are going to pretend to be asleep when the teachers look round to 'check on us' and then we will sneak into the boys room or they can come into ours either way we will probs end up spending the night with them. 
I was texting him earlier and he put 'thought you were sharing a room with me and nash' so I replyed 'yeah with meg and tam why?' and he replyed putting 'so your all staying at our "palace"' and I replyed 'probably' and he wants me to take sweets so I said I would but there's a problem............










I KINDA LIKE HIM............. And know I dont know what to do do I tell him or do I keep my secret to myself? help me.

I just got a call of my friend and she sounded worried I asked her what was up and she told me her pugs eye has just popped out and know I'm wondering if it's normal shall I google it OR shall I let you guys decide OR shall I wait and see what she tells me tomorrow?
Help please
Thanks for reading :)

A few facts about me hope you like it :)

Hi I'm Hollie I come from Lichfield, England.  Lichfield is a really small city and has a pretty small population.  Lichfield is a place more for torrists not for shopping so I don't get to go shopping a lot.  Yes I have cuts that's why I mainly made this blog so I can share everything with you guys like: Songs I'm into at the minute, the style I like to wear at the minute and why I'm so depressed sorry but I need to share it with someone and that's why I have made this so you guys can probably help me get through it, Yes there are people worse than me but I just need someone to talk to and hopefully you guys will listen.  I have been having trouble at school with some people I thought were my friends but they keep back stabbing me and calling my names like: Dog, Whore, Slag, Slut, Lesbian at first Ithought they were joking but it got to out of hand I just hope I can find new people to talk to so that's why I made this account.  

Last night someone told me to cut deeper and kill my self he kept calling me a dumb bitch for doing it luckily and thankfully this lad and his girlfriend stuck up for me and I couldn't of wished for more.  All I'm saying is don't let anyone get you down like I did and now I cut.  My closest friend who has been there for thick and thin and she's the first person I told and I trusted her, I wasn't going to tell anyone but she helped me I could talk to her about it and that made me feel better :)